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Section 6 Leaving family to join with Mormons in the west 1845-46

The day that I first went to meeting Ann Eliza was sent for to go home to assist in taking care of her brother Lorenzo W. who was sick with consumption he died the 28th day of Jany 1845 he was buried in the same place that Daniel W. was, side by side, he was a good young man he was inteligent and industrious his age was 26 years 7 months 11 days. I was sent for to go and make his coffin or assist in it. after he was buried we returnd to fathers.

during the winter of 1845 I was finishing off a house which was an addition to the main house until the month of December when an Elder by the name of Edward Wilard was sent to me to tell me the time had come for all the Saints to gather for the church was going to move to Vancovers Island or someplace in the far west, it was not known yet whare, but we ware required to do as Abraham did to go to a land that should yet be shown to us. I told mother the word that I had received but she did not like it much. I said that the Lord had called me to save my fathers house and it was for her as much as any. She said that if she was never saved till I done it she should be damned to all eternity I talked much to her about my faith and the hope that was before me, but she did not believe me. She said she had one consolation and that was I had not any means that I could command to go with and she guesst that I would have my match to get away I told her that the God that I served was rich for the earth was his and the fullnes thareof and I had no fears but what I should get away inasmuch as I done the best I could the Lord was bound to open the way for me and he surely would do it. Yes ! said she, the god that does such things is made of silver and gold and if I was smart enough to get it then I might start but no doubt I should be back to winter. This she said because it was generly in the fall that I had come home but it was not because I wisht to, but it was their desire that I should for it was in the fall that they kneeded me most, In a few days I went down to fatherinlaws to see him about some timber for a waggon he said that if I would make him one he would give me lumber for one for myself and board me while I was makeing them both, & I went at it. I made his in part but he mad up his mind that he should not want it and tole me to go on with mine and finish it as soon as I could I had a few notes which I had worked for before one was against P. Leonard for the house that I sold him 25 dollars and for which he paid me a small cook stove at 18 dollars and the rest he paid in money I had a note against John Seales of about 10 dollars he paid me two thousand shingles and some money. I sold a cow to a man by the name of Roberts of Grand Rapids for 12 dollars I sold two bedsteads to mother and a table and some other things and she paid me in money so that in all I raised enough to buy my iron for my waggon and paid a blacksmith the stove for doing the iron work for me and had money left. While I was makeing my waggon Ann Eliza was spinning wool and was at work with Eliza making a piece of cloth cotton and wool. Mother scolded so much that she could not stand it and she moved into a room in the house whare father Orr lived (with Eliza for he had moved away and Hall had moved in) Ann Eliza took the south room it was 7 feet wide and 12 feet long with a stairway in one corner. When mother found she was going in their she tried to persuade her not to go for sais she what will the neighbors say. She answered she could not help what they said she could not stand it any longer in the way she had. Mother thought that Ann Eliza had but little faith in Mor-manism and she wanted her to persuade me not to go but she could not accomplish it which vext her by night and by day. She tried every scheme in her power but all her plans failed She would invite in the neighbers to talk to me, one by the name of Woodruff he was Deacon in the Congregationalists church he said all he could think of but he was headed on every hand and as a last resort he broke out in the following You have been a Methodist and a Universalist and now you are a morman and no one knows what you will be next for you are of your father the devil and the wo*ks of your father ye will do, for he was a liar from the beginning and the father of it.

Just before we ware ready to leave thare came an apostate from Nauvoo by the name of Hiram Cook with the story that the rnormans had more than one wife, but we did not believe him but after all it was something of a trial for the fel*w come directly from Nauvoo and he said that he had seen it with his own eyes, and told of those that we knew And we could not prove to the contrary but we was careful not to let it come to mothers ears for fear that it might be told of again.

However I was determined not to back out, nor have it said that the God that I served had faild to do as I told them he would do about this time Salmon told me that he had laid in for a team for me and when I was ready to start he would have it on hand for me. he said he had seen me in hell long enough and he would help me off and he calculated to go with me himself and family When he told me this I felt to thank the Lord for his goodness in opening the way for me by providing means for my exit from babalon and all her abomnations This I considered another miracle which was in answer to my prayers, one other I will notice before I proceed farther. I had always been afflicted with the tooth ache, one day as I was husking corn in the month of November in the barn, it came on to me the hardest kind Something seemd to say to me what church do you belong to I answerd I belong to the mormans. Why they believe in miracles dont they Yes sais I, I believe they do Well then why dont you try the medecine yourself. At this I fell onto my knees and asked the Lord to heal me of the tooth ache, and it lef me forthwith and it has not troubled me since and it is now 10 years.

In the time I was geting my wagon ironed by the blacksmith I turned in and helped him by blowing and stroking this saved me about 1/4 of the expence Hall also had one done at the same time and I made him a box and frame to put the cover on which cost me about 12 days laber which was worth about $1. 50 pr day he was expecting to go with me but he failed in setling his farm so he could not raise a team as he intended And he told me that if the mormans ware as corrupt as they had been represented he did not wish to go with them, but he wanted me to go on down to Kanzas or on the Misissippi river and find out what I could about them, and make a claim and he would come on to me in the coarse of the sumer or fall and he would settle with me.

When father found I was about to get away he came to the barn whare I was at work and said since I was determined to start off I should not go without some money here is five dollars which I make a presant of to you I took it and thanked him this made me $22. 50 in my pocket. I had about 10 bushels of wheat as I had supposed but when I was ready to load up I learned that father had carried it all to mill both his and mine while I was away at work on my waggon and got it ground together and I had none. I asked him why he done so. he said that I had no share in it whatever I told him I had done the laber to rais it and supposed I was entitled to a share of it. he said it did not make any differance if I did it was his and he should keep it. I told him then if he could live with it I would do without it, for as it hapened I had a little money left and as long as that lasted I should not starve and went to loading up, but finaly mother told him if she was in his place she would let me have a little flour finely he consented and came out and told me to bring in a sack and he would let me have some flour. So I did so and he masered me out about 50 or 60 Ibs and that was all I could have I had a water keg which I intend to take but it could not be found at last I found out that it had been sent off full of whiskey and of coarse it was safe also a trowel was put away for safe keeping but I was determined nothing should stop me. I put up what I had and roaled out as I drove out at the gate I said good by mother, as she stood in the door, she seemed to be somewhat affected but father stood near by and said never mind He'll be back to winter, sais I father this is the last time you will ever see me this side of the grave, then sals I shall die before winter, he said! no sais I you will live long enough to find that I am not so easey to back out this time. Ann Elizas sister Aurealia was presant when we started and bid us good by and wanted to go with us but her father was not willing for she had asked his consent but he declined making my waggon. I had forgot to mention that while I was at his house I read the book of morman through to him and told him all that I knew about it. He was not against it but rather in favor but not enough to receive it. I bade farewell to my home and all that seemd dear to me as far as this world was concerned, the gospel was all that seemd of any worth to me. I was determined to serve my God the rest of my days. My heart was heavy with grief at leaving my father and mother although they had been somewhat unkind in their treatment to me. I knew that his days ware not many on this earth, as I had told Eliza that in two or three years he would be laid low in the grave and it would be a sorrowful time and I did not wish to witness it. he was a good man and was always kind to his family as a general thing, but mother used to scold him many times for not doing as she thought was as it should be and he sometimes would resent it and sometimes say nothing but get up and go off out of hearing to get out of the nois Mother was an industrious woman and always for going ahead to make money so much so that it was hard for her to treat her family as they should be but still she learned everybody that came to dwell with her how to be industrious and prudent she was very saveing and prudent in all her business and taught her children to be the same. I told her she had many years to live that she would yet see the day that she would be glad that I was a morman,

Eliza kept us all with tears in her eyes as she said she had dreamed that she did not know when she should see us again for they did not come as they expected but staid till she just got away in time to save herself and children We started off but my spirits ware heavy and I was much tempted for I was starting for a country that I knew not of a land of strangers whare I knew that I should have to stand alone and I had exper-eance enough to know that the this world was full of snares and pitts and that the people that I had enlisted with had a bad name and all things that was calculated to discourage me seemed to be brought before me and the powers of darkness strove might -ely with me Hall went with us as far as Gull Corners about two miles but he did not percieve that I was tried When I left him I shook his hand and I perceived that he possessed the feelings of a natural brother and here my spirits seemed to possess a double load and it seemed all that I could bear but I roused myself as If by the power of magic as I turned from him with a smile saying God bless you Salmon and all that you have from this time forth and for ever, as these words fell from my lips I felt the power of God resting upon me and I knew that they would be fulfilled. Here again the dark clouds of dispalr broke away and the light of the spirit dawned gently on my mind and as we proceeded on our journey I grew lighter and lighter until I felt as cheerful as in former times.


Journal Sections
  1. Brief history of Phineas' ancestry
  2. Childhood to 1838
  3. 1839 - Spring of 1843
  4. 1843 - 1845
  5. Conversion to the Mormon Church
  6. Leaving the family to join with the Mormons in the west 1845-46
  7. To Mechanicsville, Winter Quarters
  8. Winter Quarters 2
  9. Traveling West to Utah
  1. Settling in the Valley
  2. Run in with Indians
  3. 1851 - 1853
  4. 1854-1855
  5. Events of 1855
  6. September 1855- March 1856
  7. May - July 1856
  8. August - December 1856
  9. 1857 - Journal Conclusion